Do you love what you're doing?
Do you love where you're at?
Do you love who you're with?
Do you love where you're at?
Do you love who you're with?
If you can answer "Yes" to two out of the three questions, then in general, you're a little more than content with your life.
It's high-stress time for me right now and it makes me think about these things.
I love what I am doing. I love my internship and the little, humbling part I play in the organization. It brings perspective into why I do what I do and why I want to do it. It brings me outside of myself and into the world. But I don't just love the work that I do. I also love what I am doing for myself and the plans I am working hard to make happen. So I love that all the things I am doing brings some balance between what I want to do and what it is I am meant to do.
I am learning to love where I am at. When I first visited Washington DC, I was 13 and it was such an exciting time for me! I was learning the in's and out's of the political buzz. I did another stint in DC when I was 20. That time, I was learning about why American's hate politics. I am back here at 22. This time, I'm learning to love living here, making a life for myself here. I think DC is one learning process at a time for me. Love doesn't always come as easily as we'd like for it. So sometimes, we have to learn these things.
Who I am with.. I suppose this is where it gets tricky. Let me start with this: I am so, very blessed to have family and friends on all sides of the world to be the support system I need and more. Whether they are a 350-mile to an upward 6,000-mile phone call away, I can always count on someone to pick up. But the real question here is, "Do you love who you are with?" As in, physically, alongside, in company of. I try my best to not confuse being alone with loneliness. For the most part, I am good about it. But it does get confusing when you are in desperate need of a hug, a real shoulder to cry on, someone to bake you cupcakes, someone to enjoy gin or vodka tonics with, or someone to not have to worry about awkward silences with.
I suppose I answered Yes to one-and-a-half of the questions.
Honestly, it's not easy being here. I have such a hard time with figuring out the things I need and the things I want. I cannot understand how I always end up in a place with cold weather when I know I absolutely dread it. I miss having friends within, at the very most, a 15 minute walk/drive from me.
But I am right where I need to be and I'm giving it my all.
2 comments:
Dee, I love you!
"But it does get confusing when you are in desperate need of a hug, a real shoulder to cry on, someone to bake you cupcakes, someone to enjoy gin or vodka tonics with, or someone to not have to worry about awkward silences with."
This was so much easier when you were only on the other side of the building. The other side of the country is a little harder to get to.
"I cannot understand how I always end up in a place with cold weather when I know I absolutely dread it."
We should only be able to visit each other in warm places. I think that should be a rule.
I'm going to write you girls a long email tomorrow. I have a crap ton of updates, and I'm terrible at calling people.
HEART Calise
i love you dee.
i'm just a phone call, email, bbm away from you.
and no worries, since i'm broke as hell i'm totally working on stealing mileage points from everyone so i can get my ass to San Fran at least.
i need to update you and i need to see you and i miss you.
i may not be able to bake you cupcakes, but i can give you all the hugs you want. i'll bend over so you can have my shoulder to cry on, and if you really, really want that cupcake, i'm down to buy you dozens at the closest bakery. =)
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