1. Again, petty co-workers. If there was a level below petty, they'd be there.
2. I got my test back & didn't do as well as I expected.
3. I don't have any clean clothes to wear.
3 positives:
1. G. made me lunch & a drink before class today. It was quite amazing.
2. My family comes in 7 days.
3. I had dinner with M. & C. after having a rough meeting.
It just hit me, today was my last day of classes for college. I didn't even see it coming. Because I'm feeling very overwhelmed about the things that need to get done, I cannot get in the right mindset to feel bittersweet about it. I do not like this feeling at all. College classes is such a unique forum where people from different backgrounds with different opinions, goals, hopes & dreams can come together to discuss intelligent (or even pseudo-intelligent) stuff. I won't have that any more. Even as I'm typing this, I am still feeling only overwhelmed.
A. & G. were talking yesterday of how they will miss college. All they said was so true and so real. I know I will too. But right now, I can't focus on the great things college has/d to offer me. All I have are tasks that need to be completed, a to-do list of many sorts, and motions to go through.
I know that I have made a very conscious effort to enjoy every moment (including the difficult ones) but what scares me is that at the end, I won't know where the time has gone. All ending as abruptly as I walked out of my last college class and not even realize it until hours later. I am not transitioning out of college. I feel like I am practically kicking myself out.
I had my last meeting for JumpStart today. Didn't see that one coming either.
oh Sinfest
This is what I wish finals week my life looked like..
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